Sidetracked

I always start off doing my homework and end up doing the most random things. Tonight I decided to start typing my math project and then I ended up looking for shoes for my work. At least I found some :) Then, this one time I was writing an essay and it was taking me forever. Next thing I know I'm trying to buy the Pocahontas soundtrack on Ebay. It make me laugh. I love catching myself in the act and finally realizing what I'm doing. I remember why I wanted to by that particular CD. I was writing an essay on religions and I was writing about how this one religion thinks that everything is connected, the trees, animals and people. I then preceded to sing "Colors of the Wind" because I recalled the following lines: the rainstorm and the river are my brothers, the heron and the otter are my friends, and we are all connected to each other, in a circle, in a hoop that never ends!!
hah I am sooo random. oh well.

going backkk

These are some of the pictures from Winter Formal 2010. It was weird going back. I felt really old for some reason and I didn't really recognize a lot of people. Going back was fun but it isn't the same without all your friends there.

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                                Valentine's Day 2010

I know this is a little late but i wanted to post some pictures of Valentine's Day 2010. I had to work for a couple of hours that day and the store was really busy. Then i finally found my winter formal dress after going to the same mall three times. I'm thankful my mama finally came with me...i'll post pictures of that later ;)

These are the beautiful flowers my father got me. Every year my dad gets me, my mom and my sister flowers. I want my husband to do this for my daughters.

So after my pop forgot the correct time for our reservations we still got to go eat at Off Citrus. My brother was our waiter and we had a good time. The patio was so pretty, not too cold and the food was great. I had parmesan crusted chicken.

I'm not gunna lie. It would've been nice to have someone sitting next to me in that picture but i had a wonderful time enjoying the company of these two
lovers...

 

  

Overall it was a great night. 

past four years

I feel like I didn't really start living till about four years ago. It sounds weird but my eyes were just opened. Sonrise was just so comfortable and safe.  But life outside that bubble is so fantastic. Yes, I've experience pain and hurt that I never felt while I was in the bubble but on the flip side I have had so many joyous occasions happen to me.  I just can't help but miss those days.  I felt needed and useful.  I want to get involved in college and make even better memories than the ones I made in high school but it feels impossible. I mean, I should be having more fun now that I can drive, I have money of my own, I have a more free schedule (in some ways...) but life just seems to dull now.  I miss ASB. All of the rallies, retreats, early meetings even, impact, talking to Sassy and Mama and Mrs. Parker. I miss going to Disneyland with alll of my friends and going to Knotts for our banquet. I miss Class Council and helping plan Color Rally and all of us banning together to beat the seniors. I miss meeting on saturdays and after school for like 3 months just for a 4 minute performance. I miss all the teacher...well the good ones anyway.  I miss dances. Driving with all of my friends in a limo there and back, going to eat out after at in n out on barranca, getting our nails done together, trying to find the perfect dress. I miss football games. Meeting at my house before the games and walking over together, actually getting into the game, watching monica and christine cheer, the homecoming game when everyone comes back from past years, selling baked goods our junior year to raise money for Color Rally. I hate to admit it but I even miss swim, especially my freshmen year when everyone was in it.  I miss the workout first of all. I miss the community and friendships i built there.  I miss the meets and when we would all "set up camp" for those super long invitationals. I miss those lunches and breaks between class where we all became such good friends. I loved just sitting in class with all my wonderful friends.
I feel so blessed to have these memories and all the opportunities I had these past four years.  It's amazing how God works. I would have never guessed that high school would have been like this. I hated Covina High for the first two months. I would walk home alone and cry, seriously, just come home and cry cause I had no friends. It makes me laugh now. Maybe that's how college is going to be.  I don't sit and cry now cause I do have friends at CPP but I just long for that tight knit community I left behind at CHS.  The only way these great memories were made is because I went out there and got involved. It's just difficult to get involved when I don't live on campus and I'm always busy with work or homework.  It's hard not to just say things would be better if I went away to school.  I probably would've cried if I moved from my home but it would be easier to meet people and build friendships. Oh well, God has something great in store for me.  I'm just having a hard time trusting. Why should I when he has always been so faithful to me?

I love you God.

Crystal Ball

Well, I don't know what i'm going to do with my life. Right now I'm on the fast track to becoming a teacher but at the moment I'm not a fan of this idea. The good things about this profession are: I get the summer off, I get to impact/make a difference in kids lives for the better(hopefully), it goes well with my other dream of becoming a mom, it would allow me to travel in the summer, pretty much always in demand...see! by the end of this list I've re-convinced myself to stay with my choice but I just sometimes feel like i'm settling. I just really want to have a job I love to go to every single day. I don't want to get my degree and then realize I really wanted to be a physical therapist or oral hygienist. I trust the Lord that he has great plans for me but ahh. I just pray i'm not wasting my parent's money on something i don't absolutely love. Life would be easier if i had a crystal ball that showed me the future but that would just suck the surprise right outta life. I guess if I knew where I was headed in life I wouldn't really have a need to trust God. I'm thankful that He has it under control and that I don't have to.

Praise Jesus. now back to my homework =/

welcome to my beautiful life

there's no reason or rhyme to these. oh wait. the one thing they all have in common is they make me smile.
















Me and my babygirl



I just think these look yummy.


it doesn't even have to be this cute! i just want a dog who loves me slash likes to run.








I love this guy so much. I'm kinda just like him sometimes and it makes me laugh!


Summertime, please come back to me. I swear we'll have fun if you do!!


Take my arms. I'll never use them. Your goodbyes left me with eyes that cry :(



Nature hikes with the extended familia.




i miss this babydoll a lot! come home Jovie.














me and this booger this morning :)



falling for you




Gee Emm RRrrr



i love tio carlos.



i miss this boy so much it hurts! he made me laugh every single day! Senior year wouldn't have been the same without you Alejangee :)


gahh. these girls. miss them toooo!




ES. this girl rocks. here's one person i know whose always got my back.


took this picture when we took the train to Olvera Street.


took this picture of my jadey wadey in bio sophomore year. miss this dude and his deep thoughts!


this is MY tree, babbby!



we were so young back then. now the princesses are getting OLD :)



probably one of the coolest pictures i've accidentally taken hah



love them!


mountain mama


don't tell her i put this one up. she'd kill me. but i love it and her so much!



i wish i took more pictures. they capture the moment.

Por que Senor?

I don't feel like writing my essay on reality right now so I'm just going to procrastinate. Honestly I want to be able to love people the way God does. Obviously I can't love them as much as He does but I want to at least get close. I'm pretty good at loving those who already love me or those who I know will love me back but its those other million people that I have trouble with. It's like I know what I want to do but I just don't do it. I get mad at other drivers when they go ten miles under the speed limit or cut me off. I get angry with my sister easily. Hey! Why is it so easy to fight with the people you love the most? Is it because you know they'll love you no matter what? That's horrible. They should be the ones I love all the time. Gahh. I don't want to be perfect, although it's usually what I aim for =/, I just want to not do the things I so plainly know are wrong. I'm really relating to Paul lately: "So the trouble is not with the law, for it is spiritual and good. The trouble is with me, for I am all too human, a slave to sin. I don't really understand myself, for I want to do what is right, but I don't do it. Instead, I do what I hate!(romans 7)". Life is hard. I have a wonderful and blessed life but doing life and being the person I know God wants me to be is the difficult part. I truly believe God has something great in store for me and my life but it's hard to remember that when I get discouraged so easily. All I can say is I can't wait till I'm standing in His presence.
love you.