What is it called when you don't procrastinate and actually pace your work out for yourself? I have no clue because I never do that. Except for this weekend! I stayed home Friday AND Saturday night diligently doing my homework all weekend and here is Sunday afternoon and I am still not done. I have had three offers to go to Disneyland today and I had to turn each person down. I am a drama queen but it was literally painful having to tell them no. I love Disneyland and focused the past couple of days in hopes of going. Sometimes I just wonder if my sacrifices for school are worth it. The girl sitting next to me at graduation who went to Disneyland today is still going to get the same degree as me and graduate just the same. Sure I may have some extra tassel on my shoulder but who cares? Unless I'm trying to get into a prestigious graduate school I honestly don't see the point. Half of me is already in the car driving to Disneyland as the other half of me, the nerd, sits here and types. I would be fine making the sacrifice if I knew that this was going to make a difference. UGH. I seriously CAN NOT WAIT until the stupid quarter is over. I am a shut-in every weekend and during the week I'm so busy. I basically live at school and forget TV. That is a thing of the past.
I just want someone to affirm that I'm doing the right thing. I try and remind myself that I am not working for man or even for myself but for God. I pray that my sacrifices are not done in vain. I want the Lord to take this education and use it for his glory or else it is a waste. Well, back to the books...
...as I sit here in my Disney T-shirt :(
