What is it called when you don't procrastinate and actually pace your work out for yourself? I have no clue because I never do that. Except for this weekend! I stayed home Friday AND Saturday night diligently doing my homework all weekend and here is Sunday afternoon and I am still not done. I have had three offers to go to Disneyland today and I had to turn each person down. I am a drama queen but it was literally painful having to tell them no. I love Disneyland and focused the past couple of days in hopes of going. Sometimes I just wonder if my sacrifices for school are worth it. The girl sitting next to me at graduation who went to Disneyland today is still going to get the same degree as me and graduate just the same. Sure I may have some extra tassel on my shoulder but who cares? Unless I'm trying to get into a prestigious graduate school I honestly don't see the point. Half of me is already in the car driving to Disneyland as the other half of me, the nerd, sits here and types. I would be fine making the sacrifice if I knew that this was going to make a difference. UGH. I seriously CAN NOT WAIT until the stupid quarter is over. I am a shut-in every weekend and during the week I'm so busy. I basically live at school and forget TV. That is a thing of the past.
I just want someone to affirm that I'm doing the right thing. I try and remind myself that I am not working for man or even for myself but for God. I pray that my sacrifices are not done in vain. I want the Lord to take this education and use it for his glory or else it is a waste. Well, back to the books...
...as I sit here in my Disney T-shirt :(
Sunday, November 13, 2011
Tuesday, September 6, 2011
Day by Day
I am at such an interesting place in my life. I have 16 days till i start school and i'm currently unemployed. I feel like I haven't had this kind of free time since 6th grade or something. But really my September was like this right before my freshman year at Cal Poly. Its just so different and honestly hard for me. I really have to get over the feelings of being useless simply because i'm not super busy. I am constantly praying that God would show me how to use this time wisely. I just don't want to waste my life or miss blessings or miss ways that i can be a blessing to others.
Someone gave me some great insight on my situation. She told me that if i really thought about it i'm going to be working for the rest of my life whether i'm a mother or have a career. I should really take advantage of this season of life that God is blessing me with.
Lord, show me your will for this special time. Continue to prepare me for what you have coming my way<3
Someone gave me some great insight on my situation. She told me that if i really thought about it i'm going to be working for the rest of my life whether i'm a mother or have a career. I should really take advantage of this season of life that God is blessing me with.
Lord, show me your will for this special time. Continue to prepare me for what you have coming my way<3
Wednesday, July 13, 2011
Rome
Wednesday, June 29, 2011
Something Blue
I was super sad when I thought I lost this cute little flower somewhere at work. My bestest friend Esther made it for me (along with many other little goodies) for my 20th birthday. It is so cute and it is something I will cherish always. Handmade gifts are the best. I love them so much.
Let's Go!
I just have this crazy urge to pack up and hit the road. I want to go and stay in different National Parks and just be in nature. I really am a outdoorsy girl at heart. I love the thrill and excitement of camping outside. I love making fires and roasting different foods over them (mostly hot dogs and s'mores). But right now I really just want to get up and go and not look back, just be somewhere where people don't know me. I want to learn something new about a city or historic site.
Maybe I'm just missing Tahoe. That was such a great vacation that we were blessed with by our old neighbors. We went horseback riding, picnicing, a boat tour and even visited this super old "mansion" that a lady built right on the shore. She had Norwegian builders come and replicate the architecture. My family and I had a wonderful time relaxing and one of the best parts was a Shakespeare outdoor theater show we went to. The stage's backdrop was the beautiful lake. We also went river rafting on the Trukee River. I tried to get out and pull our raft over so we could swim but the current was too strong and my family got taken away without me. I had to walk through the river/stumble/float further down till I saw them all stuck in some brush waiting for me. It was hilarious and cute. They steered themselves there because that was the only way the knew how to stop. I seriously thought I was going to have to go down the river in some random group's raft. Great memories.
Now let me just say this. I am no complaining. The Lord as blessed me with the opportunity to serve Him and his children in Spain this summer. I'm basically fully funded and my best friends will be experiencing it with me however that is not the vacation I long for. Yes, we are staying a few extra days to sight-see after the mission trip but its not the same when you are not with your family. I feel more relaxed when I know my dad is there to watch out for us and there to pick up the bill :) Who knows? Maybe Spain will fulfill my longing desire to experience a new place. I'm sure it is going to be amazing. I can't wait to see what God is going to show me about his people, myself and our team.
I guess I'll just have to wait and see!
-AET
Maybe I'm just missing Tahoe. That was such a great vacation that we were blessed with by our old neighbors. We went horseback riding, picnicing, a boat tour and even visited this super old "mansion" that a lady built right on the shore. She had Norwegian builders come and replicate the architecture. My family and I had a wonderful time relaxing and one of the best parts was a Shakespeare outdoor theater show we went to. The stage's backdrop was the beautiful lake. We also went river rafting on the Trukee River. I tried to get out and pull our raft over so we could swim but the current was too strong and my family got taken away without me. I had to walk through the river/stumble/float further down till I saw them all stuck in some brush waiting for me. It was hilarious and cute. They steered themselves there because that was the only way the knew how to stop. I seriously thought I was going to have to go down the river in some random group's raft. Great memories.
Now let me just say this. I am no complaining. The Lord as blessed me with the opportunity to serve Him and his children in Spain this summer. I'm basically fully funded and my best friends will be experiencing it with me however that is not the vacation I long for. Yes, we are staying a few extra days to sight-see after the mission trip but its not the same when you are not with your family. I feel more relaxed when I know my dad is there to watch out for us and there to pick up the bill :) Who knows? Maybe Spain will fulfill my longing desire to experience a new place. I'm sure it is going to be amazing. I can't wait to see what God is going to show me about his people, myself and our team.
I guess I'll just have to wait and see!
-AET
Saturday, June 25, 2011
just focus!
i have so many awesome thoughts and things i want to share but unfortunately i am too tired to articulate them now. i will soon though seeing as it is summer and all! what else will i be doing? i'm also super excited because my cousin bought me two new books today at the women's conference that was at my church. they are dating books which i've been reading a lot lately hah but these two are written by a comedian Kerri Pomarolli so they are hilarious and more like diary entries from her past dating experience. i can't wait to keep reading!
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