Why do I do this to myself. Its like those dumb songs that talk about being addicted to the pain or something. Its not that I want him back it just sucks being the single one. It would be different if I saw those pictures and I had some pictures of my own but the fact is, I don't. I know I will. I'm not worried about that. I just need to be patient and wait for God's perfect timing. HA and then the perfect song comes on to Pandora...that would happen to me. Ingrid Michaelson's Maybe. This expresses old feelings I had. I had to let go to know if it was meant to me and if you were supposed to come back to me. Obviously you aren't. And when I said I was happy for the both of you I wasn't lying. It just still hurts watching you not come back to me.
Lord, please continue to heal my heart. You've brought me so far, so far. Continue your work in me. Please be faithful to complete it.
Love you!
<3AET
